Goals...big goals.

-Get a job in an industry that focuses on writing.
-Immerse myself in eastern philosophy and culture: study a martial art, meditate regularly, practice yoga, and study Theravada Buddhism.

The first goal is one I've had for years that hasn't been achieved because I fear failure. There are many ways to get to this goal, and lots of branches I can scramble off to once I reach it.

The second goal hasn't been achieved because I've been lazy. I'm not as driven as I used to be, and there's always something that gets in the way, something that takes less time, is easier to do, and yet makes me feel "accomplished" - for the moment anyway. I also balk at the idea of developing a connection to eastern practices because I hate the idea of being viewed as one of those people that gets kanji tattoos and looks like a douchey poser. However, Buddhism DOES focus on ridding oneself of the need for that kind of superficial acceptance...

I guess this journal is supposed to help me focus on these things, as well as push me to let go of the things that aren't important. Spending time with Richard benefits my life; re-organizing my closet doesn't. Cuddling with the dog is important both for him and for me; sitting in front of the computer and absent-mindedly petting him isn't.

Okay. Well then. Here we go.